A year ago today I was told I had breast cancer. The months following my diagnosis, and after having surgery and recovering from it, lots of feeling took over me, I was scared, very scared, but I also felt the most love I had felt in my life, I felt my family, my friends, I found new friends, and found old friends, I felt every prayer thrown my way, I felt every new morning as a blessing. I longed for normal mornings, no Doctors, no fear, I saw the extraordinary in every little ordinary thing, I cried a lot, and I laughed my ass off too. I got to spend more time with my family, mornings at the hospital with my mom, or my aunt, or Gabriel... were fun, we really had fun! The one thing I didn´t do was share ANY of these with my girls... I tried to keep them safe, I told them the least I could possibly tell them, and never ever shed a tear in front of them, because one thing I was sure of, cancer scared me but taking them in this steep road with me scared me even more, and I was determined to protect them. So for all they knew if their mom was happy as always why worry right? Maybe they were God´s way of carrying me, I felt at peace being his instrument, and most of all I felt HUMBLED, oh so very humbled by love!
People called me a warrior... which was odd to me, because I didn´t feel like one, This fight was not one I chose, or one I had a say in, this was given to me and I had to carry it out, that simple! There was nothing braver about me because I had cancer, I was still afraid, One day in church I remember telling God... here I am, I am yours, do what you have to do, I will walk the path you decide for me in the best way I can, and I will embrace it!.. And suddenly fear stopped, I had peace!
And as fast as my life was turned upside down, it was flipped again to the good side! Why me? I have no clue.. I really don´t... I sometimes think that it made more sense when I had cancer, but being worthy of this miracle baffles me to my core. It makes me think every second I breath, everytime I comb my hair, everytime see my girls smile so carefree... that I was chosen by God to do something.... I still don´t know what it is, am sure I will soon find out, but I do feel the need to give back to God, to give back to the world,
It´s breast cancer awareness month, so you are probably accustomed to seeing the pink bow... I think we need to do more than that, f I could give you one present is to have the ability to see how the ONLY things that matter most in life, what fuels your life, what really matters is the little things, waking up and making coffee, being able to take you children to one million places a day, cooking dinner, watching TV, doing homework, being at home with your husband, a call from a friend, the little things my friends are the EXTRAORDINARY ones, the GLORIOUS, the MAGNIFICENT.... is what makes your life grand, is what you think about when you think you might loose it all... So be happy, praise God and live a magnificent life everyday in the very simple and ordinary moments, and remember to check yourself and be a sister wherever you are needed.. trust me, it makes a difference!
Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 16, then I have an 14 year old, and my miracle baby who is 6. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!
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