This past week was a celebration of LOVE.... in all its forms!
On Tuesday night we boarded a plane for a quick trip but long flight to Dallas, Texas for our nephew´s wedding! This was one of the most intimate, romantic and full of love, joy, and hope weddings I have ever attended to. Jose Eduardo and Courtney are this perfect ¨Pearl Harbor¨ couple, he is an Army Ranger, and she is an Army nurse... and together they make this perfect all American couple that every little girl dreams about one way or another. The wedding ceremony was simple and magical, every word that the pastor said was so heartfelt I think I spent the whole time trying not to burst into tears! And then the party was so full of little details made by the bride and groom that there are almost no words to describe what felt perfect to me!
I feel so honored and proud to have been part of that special day, surrounded by trees, twinkly lights, flowers, and cowboy boots. An evening that if it wasn´t for all the love that was there, would have been a very cold one! And this made the whole thing just perfect!
Gabriel hadn´t seen his sister in over 10 years... This is another part of this LOVE celebration: Family love.. sibling love... this type of love is as unconditional as it gets, it doesn´t fade, no matter how many years have passed once you see your sibling is like time had stood still, and the question of where did time go... goes unanswered, because really all that matters is that you are together again! This feeling invaded us all through the weekend, I myself am a crier, and of course it was hard to keep my eyes dry with so many emotions.
We were also able to spend a lot of time with my cousin Gisela whom I simply adore, she is more like a little sister to me than a cousin. She moved to Dallas two years ago and it had been that much since I had seen her. She is six months pregnant, so I cried like a mom when I saw her standing tall and beautiful carrying that little baby who will be the newest and most spoiled little thing in our family come this January. We talked non stop for hours, we hugged, laughed, ate, drank Arnold Palmers like crazy, shopped, and just plain and simply loved one another and savored our now, the magic of the moment, the love that we have for each other.. trying not to think that I was leaving again in a couple of days....
We also got to see my cousin Lola, who also lives in Dallas. It had also been more than ten years since the last time we saw each other, amd seeing her and spending time with her beautiful family just took me back in time to sweet childhood memories, and erased any time we spent apart!
To top this LOVE celebration, my mom and dad celebrated their 47th wedding anniversary this past Sunday. I was not there to be happy with them, but their love, patience, tolerance, strength, compassion, and example is the reason that I have always believed in LOVE.
This week started out with a beginning, and ended with the future that we all want... a happy marriage of almost 50 years. We spend a lot of time thinking about time, specially us moms wanting to stop the clock to enjoy life at its best with all our children in our home, we spend a lot of energy planning and trying to foresee our future, trying to make it perfect... but life is happening now, it is not perfect but is ours and its happening. Our now is as magical as that Texas wedding under the trees and the twinkling lights, and the flowers... now is good and sweet, and I am just plain grateful for being here, witnessing LOVE in all its forms. Let´s love one another, love our brothers and sisters, our parents, our children, our loved one.. The pastor at the wedding said: "In the army, men live by this motto ¨don´t leave your men behind¨ we also have to live that way.. don´t leave your wife behind, don´t leave your husband behind, always go back for them...¨ I loved this... Don't leave your people behind, never give up, always go back!
It's worth it... It's LOVE!
I love rainy days, truly and deeply.. they are cool but they give me this warmth that I love. They make me think, hope, wish, dream... even at the beach I don´t mind some rain. It kind of feels like Christmas to me!
Yesterday was rainy, the whole city was collapsed, and I had to pick Alessia up from the gym early as it was flooded. Once I got back from that, it was too late to take Emi to Flamenco, nor that I wanted either... I mean literally I think I would have been eaten alive by traffic. So home we stayed. I was at the computer and decided to come down to see what the girls were doing... any time and every time I see these three together my heart dances, sings... and I embrace life sooo hard.. and I feel blessed, and I thank God!
This to me is food for the soul, specially when is rainy, and cozy, and home is about the best place on planet earth to be at! This image is perfection to me, three little girls, each one with a dream, each one different from one another, and different from me, each one happy in their own little big world. I love how they embrace life, happy and loud, yes it might be a little bit loud in this home at times, there might be music, dancing, yelling, bumps, fighting... we might be doing homework, planning a trip, seeing old pictures, reading a book, watching TV, or listening to each other´s stories, or just trying to be heard above all that´s going on.... we are not close to being perfect, but there is always a hug, a kiss, an I love you to share... I´ll often say I´m sorry and many many times you´ll hear me say TE AMO, because I know that even though we cry, and yell and laugh... we love. So I guess this is my reflection on this rainy day: it all comes down to LOVE, and maybe a little bit of rain!
Another good thing about this particular rainy day is that they even posed for a minute, which specially with Alessia is hard nowadays!
and then daddy got home, and my heart melted again... and we were complete! so let it rain!
I went to Ari´s preschool the other day for a mommy-teacher meeting, I knew I wasn´t going to be the youngest mom there, but really I wasn´t expecting to be the oldest! And I was clearly that.... but to make matters worse, they were all first time moms... OMG.... this was even worse than being the only in her forties!
So I sat there, listening to all their questions, concerns, and worries.. and just observed, trying not to judge them. Of course I was the rookiest of rookies 11 years ago, and I made the same questions, and had the same concerns about raising a baby and trying to be the perfect mom. But with Ari, I have to admit that I am basically sitting back and enjoying the ride! I am enjoying my baby without worrying if I am doing the right thing or not, and then you can add to that that she has been an ¨easy¨ baby (if this is even possible...) Gabriel often tells me that he doesn´t get how I can say that Ari doesn´t cry....haha! Of course the age concern often hits me, but there are so many things going on on in our house and so many different ages, and siblings, that the atmosphere will always be vibrant and young, at least that´s how it feels like, and what I strive to always have!
So in the morning I felt as the ¨master mom¨.... then came the afternoon and Ale was in her typical tween mood, eyes rolling, inpatient, moody, edgy, and guess what.... there I was as rookie as the moms at the preschool. I have as may questions, concerns, and worries as I had 11 years ago. I need to often call my mom and ask her for advise, and I am constantly on the phone with my sister trying to figure out what our best move with these girls is! So there.... when I thought I had it all figured out, I realize that I might be as rookie as 11 years ago!
Sometimes I doubt myself, and judge myself, but as long as my room is the room they want to be when the day ends, and as long as they want to be hugged and kissed a million time before going to bed, I guess that we might be doing something right. So rookie mom or master mom... I just love being their mom !!!
Last night was one of those nights... Ari woke up around midnight and I couldn´t get her to back to sleep until 4:30 am. I tried everything, I let her cry a little like I usually do and she falls back at sleep on her own... didn´t work, so I went to her room to check on her, changed her diaper and rocked her, sang to her, nothing... took her to my room... nothing, went back to her room put her in her crib and nothing.
This almost never happens, but when it does, and before I loose my patience completely, I think about the moms out there that are having a sleepless night, but not because of a crying baby, but because their baby or child is sick... or worse, and that is when I get full of patience and thank God for the blessing of being there with a crying but healthy baby, and I pray for them... I really pray with all my might for those children and their moms, and I thank God for my sleepless but so simple night....
And because sleepless nights take me back to when the girls where newborns.... here is a picture of Ari, just 19 months ago...
Today was Ari´s first day at ¨school¨, it is this cute, little amazing school for children from 1 to 4 years old, only in the mornings, they come here to start socializing, learning the basics, and I think to give moms a little air!
So here I am, happy as can be, but also trying to soak up every little bit of babyhood without being over sentimental! Today we all woke up early, Ale and Emi had their outfits ready so there wouldn´t be any fuzz today choosing the ¨right one¨for the occasion. I thought I wasn´t nervous until I found myself staring at the closet deciding what to wear... after all, I wanted to make a good first impression for Ari!
Here is our school girl all ready in her brand new uniform and backpack (full of diapers)!
"People usually consider walking on water or in thin air a miracle. But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged in a miracle which we don't even recognize: a blue sky, white clouds, green leaves, the black, curious eyes of a child -- our own two eyes. All is a miracle." -Thích Nhất Hạnh. This I quote today from the Facebook page of my cousin, she is studying medicine, and is backpacking in Europe. She is one of those free souls full of love, beauty and peace... one of those persons that you will surely change your life if you have her near you.
Life is a miracle, just waking up and being here is a miracle... so today be you, take a moment to breath in and thank God for you life!
Here is a picture of my beloved Avila, the mountain that we wake up to here in Caracas, our feeling of protection, our North! The one thing we proudly call ours....
Coming home from a long vacation is always bittersweet, a part of me wants to stay in vacation-no-problem-land, and the other wants to go home to our usual schedules and routine which also makes life easier and predictable. The thing is that here in Venezuela nothing is simple, or easy or routine like now a days. But even though pessimism tries to kick in, I keep trying to remind myself that to see a rainbow, you have to endure the rain....
So suitcases unpacked, house clean, and 2 weeks away from the beginning of school, I am starting to see my own little rainbow through the eyes of my girls! And again I am trying to remember what I have always told myself, my sister, and my girls... BLOOM, just bloom where you are planted! Right now we are planted in a place where peace, quite, integrity, and joy has to come from the inside, and you know... when you think of it, that is not really that far.... only we can get there. So yes, today the sky is blue, our garden is green, spring is forever, our house is beautiful, my girls are the best, I love my family, and we will bloom and bring color to life!
Here is our afternoon of color and fun... and rainbows, bubbles and cats!!! and love!
Ale is finally back!!! we officially have a full house again, and I tell you is the best feeling in the world! She came back with a thousand stories, new friends, and tweener than ever... still, she asked to sleep with us, right in the middle, and even though we usually like the bed to ourselves, having the girls take over the bed once in a while is the best feeling ever! It´s happiness, safety, belonging, and love all in one small place!
Again it was impossible to capture the moment through my camera when Ale got off that bus (it was raining, a million people, Ari on my neck, Emi on the other hand....) but of that moment I will never forget Ari´s face when she saw her older sister.... the surprise and love on her face will never leave me!
And so, as everything in life, we are back to normal again today, am organizing our trip later this week, trying to make our departure as smooth as possible, Ari is playing by my side while a write this post, Emi is watching music videos on youtube, and Ale.... just being my perfect tween!
Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 16, then I have an 14 year old, and my miracle baby who is 6. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!
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