I kid you not when I tell you that my 19 month old baby has homework! I know she is still a baby, she doesn´t talk, she uses diapers and she is spoiled rotten by every single person in this family.... but she has homework to do! seriously... she does! My mom is horrified by this, so is my sister... ¨how is it possible to have a baby do homework.. or their moms?!?!¨... but to me this is just so funny, and she looks so adorable doing her homework that I guess that I´ll just take another picture of her, and just cover her with more kisses and hugs for a job well done entertaining all of us!!!
I love rainy days, truly and deeply.. they are cool but they give me this warmth that I love. They make me think, hope, wish, dream... even at the beach I don´t mind some rain. It kind of feels like Christmas to me!
Yesterday was rainy, the whole city was collapsed, and I had to pick Alessia up from the gym early as it was flooded. Once I got back from that, it was too late to take Emi to Flamenco, nor that I wanted either... I mean literally I think I would have been eaten alive by traffic. So home we stayed. I was at the computer and decided to come down to see what the girls were doing... any time and every time I see these three together my heart dances, sings... and I embrace life sooo hard.. and I feel blessed, and I thank God!
This to me is food for the soul, specially when is rainy, and cozy, and home is about the best place on planet earth to be at! This image is perfection to me, three little girls, each one with a dream, each one different from one another, and different from me, each one happy in their own little big world. I love how they embrace life, happy and loud, yes it might be a little bit loud in this home at times, there might be music, dancing, yelling, bumps, fighting... we might be doing homework, planning a trip, seeing old pictures, reading a book, watching TV, or listening to each other´s stories, or just trying to be heard above all that´s going on.... we are not close to being perfect, but there is always a hug, a kiss, an I love you to share... I´ll often say I´m sorry and many many times you´ll hear me say TE AMO, because I know that even though we cry, and yell and laugh... we love. So I guess this is my reflection on this rainy day: it all comes down to LOVE, and maybe a little bit of rain!
Another good thing about this particular rainy day is that they even posed for a minute, which specially with Alessia is hard nowadays!
and then daddy got home, and my heart melted again... and we were complete! so let it rain!
I think that by now is no secret that with Ari I am playing mom, playing house, playing life.... so I really had to do a dress rehearsal before Halloween! I am not a fan of costumes, not for carnivals, less for Halloween....but my girls LOVE it, they have so much fun dressing up that I have learned to enjoy it too!
Ale and Emi were off on play dates, and I was left with Ari to entertain me! So why not a little dress rehearsal!?!?
Happy Monday, hope you have a great week!
Today I went out to run some errands with Emi, it turns out that I couldn´t do what I intended to do, and so in my opinion, the whole afternoon had been a waste of time. As I was paying at the parking lot, I commented this to Emi, and to my surprise a lady that was in line behind us said to me: ¨do you really think you wasted your time? I don´t think you did, all I see is you spending time with your daughter, and time spent with your children is never wasted... Look at me, I am alone...¨
The room that never fails to make my life pink!
Emi showing me what patience and love is all about...
even though tween years are hitting us hard, I assure you this is one of the prettiest smiles there is!!
my tiny little student
Hope you have a super happy weekend!
I went to Ari´s preschool the other day for a mommy-teacher meeting, I knew I wasn´t going to be the youngest mom there, but really I wasn´t expecting to be the oldest! And I was clearly that.... but to make matters worse, they were all first time moms... OMG.... this was even worse than being the only in her forties!
So I sat there, listening to all their questions, concerns, and worries.. and just observed, trying not to judge them. Of course I was the rookiest of rookies 11 years ago, and I made the same questions, and had the same concerns about raising a baby and trying to be the perfect mom. But with Ari, I have to admit that I am basically sitting back and enjoying the ride! I am enjoying my baby without worrying if I am doing the right thing or not, and then you can add to that that she has been an ¨easy¨ baby (if this is even possible...) Gabriel often tells me that he doesn´t get how I can say that Ari doesn´t cry....haha! Of course the age concern often hits me, but there are so many things going on on in our house and so many different ages, and siblings, that the atmosphere will always be vibrant and young, at least that´s how it feels like, and what I strive to always have!
So in the morning I felt as the ¨master mom¨.... then came the afternoon and Ale was in her typical tween mood, eyes rolling, inpatient, moody, edgy, and guess what.... there I was as rookie as the moms at the preschool. I have as may questions, concerns, and worries as I had 11 years ago. I need to often call my mom and ask her for advise, and I am constantly on the phone with my sister trying to figure out what our best move with these girls is! So there.... when I thought I had it all figured out, I realize that I might be as rookie as 11 years ago!
Sometimes I doubt myself, and judge myself, but as long as my room is the room they want to be when the day ends, and as long as they want to be hugged and kissed a million time before going to bed, I guess that we might be doing something right. So rookie mom or master mom... I just love being their mom !!!
Here in Venezuela we have a saying that is that ¨everyone has a cross to carry¨, meaning that no one has a perfect life, no marriage is perfect, no family is perfect... some people have to live with an illness, others have financial problems, or a problem child, or a sick parent... so many things can go wrong in your life... and probably something will go wrong in a moment of your life... I mean is a fact. So it is not a thing of having a problem but how we deal with it.
Right now my cross is living in this beautiful country, were I was born, where I have lived all my life, where my family and my heart is, a country that makes me.. ¨me¨, a country full of color, laughter, sun, and happy people but which is sick in so many ways... I usually don´t talk about politics but lately is so much a part of our lives that is hard to ignore. That brings me back to Ale, Emi and Ari... three pure souls, three innocent children with their lives ahead of them, and a world for them to conquer, who are having to live in a country which as they hear and see is not providing any of the things a ¨home¨ should provide us.
Sometimes my heart aches when I see them listening to so many problems, I hate it that they are growing up learning to mistrust everyone, and to watch over their shoulder so they don´t get robbed... it is hard to explain why good people like the police and the national guard are not always the good guys, and why our normal now is not going out at nights, having to cross Caracas trying to find something as simple as diapers, milk, toilet paper.. our whatever basic need we need, not being able to go on a road trip in Venezuela because the risks involved are unthinkable. Why so many of their friends are leaving... or why every adult conversation revolves around the same subject of moving to another country or not, over and over again.
A lot of Venezuelans have given in, some have left the country in search for not just a better life, but a peaceful one, and the ones that have stayed are starting to loose hope, to loose that happiness that characterizes our people. But to all these (and a whole lot more) I refuse to give in... I don´t want my girls to grow in fear, I don´t want them to think anything else aside from their childhood games, I want them to feel safe at home, and even though they are not living in the same Venezuela I lived in when I was growing up, I want them to love and embrace their country. I want them to have parents that are not always worried, or thinking about options, and alternatives all the time...
I don´t know if I am doing it right, but I do try to cover reality with big smile, with a home full of love, with a cake in the oven now and then, with friends over Fridays after school, with parental control on what they see on TV, and trying to control what they hear us say (at least at home). I turn up the volume every chance I get and dance with them, and I pretend that all is cool. I will tell them Big Fish stories everyday if it is necessary... and try to keep our conversations simple and child-friendly. We try to travel every chance we get to breath in some sense of ¨normal¨. I have taught my girls (specially Emi who is more sensible) to see life as a horse, and that if she is in a situation where she is listening to things that scare her or if she sees something that she thinks is too much for her, to take the reigns and ride that horse away to a happier place, to a place she can control.
Challenges make us stronger, make us grow... make us tough. We cannot control everything, but we can decide not to give in to fear and sadness. So I say it again, and I will repeat it to myself how many times I need to.. BLOOM wherever you are planted. This is where we are planted, and I have three beautiful flowers that will give color to my garden!
I wrote this last night, and this morning on my way back from taking the girls to school, I was greeted by the most beautiful morning, full of fresh air, blue sky, cool weather, and hope! I love you Caracas... keep blooming!
Looking at Ari looking at me.... I can clearly see that even though my girls might not listen to every word I say, and even though they might not pay attention when I try to teach them something or give them a word of advise, and even though their ability to ¨listen¨ to me will not very good at times...one thing is absolutely certain: their ability to imitate me will never fail, these little big eyes are always watching.... That is why today and everyday I pray to God to help me be the woman that I want them to be... so they can be better than me! much better!
Last night as I was rocking Ari to sleep, and as in many many nights in the last 11 years, I started thinking how many hours I have quietly spent here, thinking, dreaming, praying, rocking my babies to sleep. How many dreams I have drawn for them, how many songs I have sang out of tune, how many boo boos I have kissed away, how many stories I have whispered into their tiny ears until they have fallen asleep. In this four pink walls I have been the happiest woman on earth, I have felt the most peace and love, and felt the most content I could ever be. Here, I have given my heart, entirely and completely to my babies.
Here, the world is an absolutely beautiful and perfect place... this is the place where all my ¨Big Fish¨ stories are as true as they want them to be. In here I am the best singer in the whole world and possibly the most beautiful woman there is, here they have laughed with the best comic, and the stories I have told them are better than Disney movies... so even though I love my whole house, this is probably the room that I love the most.
The years have passed, and three babies have been here, I have redecorated it three times, but underneath the paint, there are still the same walls that have been with me during the happiest hours of my life. So before Ari grows out of her crib, I wanted to take a minute and take a picture of the room that has seen me grow as a mom, as a woman, my silent companion during countless nights, and the guardian of all the happy dreams that have been planted here.
the paintings were all done by me!
one of those moments in this room... forever in my heart....
Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 16, then I have an 14 year old, and my miracle baby who is 6. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!
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