As mothers we are focused on providing everything for our children. We are responsible for their happiness, for pointing out the beauty around them, for showing them the simple things like brushing their teeth, and the not so simple like being brave.... we teach them to say hi with a smile (because beauty comes from within), we want them how to be confident, generous, kind, respectful human beings.... And then comes that first day of school, whether it is daycare or kindergarten or whatever you choose that first day to be... and only then you realize that really what you´ve been teaching your child is to live life beyond yourself!
And so no matter if it is your first child, or your last little one, that first day will surely make you nervous, and will make you want to hold time still, just for a little bit more! And you take pictures in your mind and with your camera... pictures that will forever be embedded in your soul.
So there we go, hand in hand, to a world new to her, I hold her hand tight and then I realize that I am the one holding on tight to that little hand, she is the one leading the way, reassuring me that life is good, that she´ll be ok, that I can let her go!
And so, without shedding a tear for her mama, she walks into a classroom full of her new friends, the ones that will laugh and cry and live with her for the next 15 years or so, eager to be happy.... am left alone outside the classroom, with mom friends to make myself because I am also in it for the next 15 years. They will also be my friends, although it will be more difficult for us to be friends and like each other, but we will because together we will see the miracle of life, love and friendship through the lives of our girls.
As soon as I got home, one of the teachers that works at the school which is a dear friend sent me this picture! she is ready.... no doubt about it!
There were also two other 1st days, Emi´s first day in 5th grade and Ale´s first day in 7th grade which is huge for us! Here in Venezuela we have elementary school from 1st grade to 6th and then High school from 7th grade to 11th..... and off to college which is only Universities for us!
Ale´s first day of high school got me by surprise... she was over the moon teenager happy mode with her brand new blue shirt that tells the world she is in high school already.... I woke up overwhelmed by love, surprise and the realization that my baby was no longer my baby, and that unlike her first day of kindergarten she was not going to hold my hand, or cry, that she was just going to jump out of the car impatiently wanting life to move fast! And so she did.... and I as I watch her walk in the school, I cried like a baby... I called Gabriel and cried while he listened trying to confort me, called my sister and cried while she made fun of me, called my mom.... and made her cry with me..... By the time I got home I cried again! But don´t worry, am not crying as I write this, am happy, satisfied, content and in peace.... My girls are happy, kind, courageous, brave... they are strong and happy, and they are already pointing out the good in the world for me to see!
And by the time school was out, I was able to get this picture out of pure peer pressure.... I have seen all of them since they were three! Aaaaw... it melts my heart!
Next week school is back in our part of the world. Ale will go on to seventh grade which is high school for us, Emi will go 5th grade, and my baby girl will start ¨maternal¨ at her sisters ¨big school¨.... So as accustomed as I am to life as a mom, it makes me so overly sentimental to see them grow up, and go from being our babies to all of a sudden being little girls and then happy teenagers who don´t want their moms to take pictures of them.
So while my two older girls hide from the camera, I have this little one who gets dressed up for mommy to play with her camera, because maybe she knows that with those two little shiny eyes she makes my heart dance! Then again it would be unfair not to mention that it was Ale and Emi the ones that made this pictures possible by holding up the comforter, bringing down all the appropriate stuffed animals and for making Ari smile and be the happy little girl she is!
By the way, this ¨photo shoot¨ was for my new line of girls dresses that I now have, it´s called Petunia Collection! There are things you mean to do all your life and never get to them... making girls dresses was one of those projects that i always had in mind but never got to it... This year I did it! They are handmade with love, and inspired by what you see here!!! I´ve been meaning to write a post on it, but then Petunia is also one of the reasons I have been so busy lately and which have kept me away from my computer. So in the mean time it would be great if you went into my IG account which is @petuniacollection or to my etsy shop:
I really would love to hear what you think about them!!!!
Hope you have a great weekend!!
Life in Venezuela has been nothing like you would think it is in the past years. Many of you know that we´ve been going through some pretty tough political and economical situation, but lately it has been so bad that I have opted for not speaking about it here, and just live this space as it is, my own little space for happiness, thoughts, love and family... my mommyworld. This is also pretty much the way I like to keep my household, free of the terribles that happen outside our door, but sometimes it´s impossible to not talk about it, or to try to ignore.
We have always been know for being happy people, for being a country full of opportunities, laughter and color. We have the best beaches because the Caribbeann Sea is kinda like ours, some pretty amazing mountains, waterfalls, we even have the Amazon... and to top it all we have more oil than Dubai... it was so good that Venezuelans had never immigrated to other countries, life has always been kind to us. Unfortunately, and to make a long story short... We´ve had the worst government possible for the last 15 years, a lot of people are calling it a Dictatorship, corruption is ridiculous, insecurity is absurd, poverty is growing by the minute, basic salary is as low as 10$ a month; the worst is our latest problem which is scarcity of basic goods... when you go to a supermarket, you will find half of what you are looking for, and if there is something like milk, rice, oil, diapers, corn flower, shampoo or toilet papers you will surely spend three hours in line or otherwise buy it at 10 times the price to contraband.
Still... if you have read my blog before you could not tell this by reading my posts, or by seeing the laughter in my girls faces, and this is not me... I think all Venezuelans have the capacity to see the good in the bad, and to make it a good day no matter what. All this is getting a lot more difficult lately, and it bothers me that children have to grow up listening to everybody they know worry about the future and seeing many many friends and family leave our beautiful country in search of a more peaceful living. But this is were we are, this is home, and we have not taken the decision to leave... and so everyday we try to make it the best day, we try to see our beautiful blue skies instead of the faces of the politicians that have taken over our country, and we watch the Disney channel instead of the news, and we go to the beach in spite of not wanting to.... and we know it is a blessing to be able to enjoy our Sundays lunches at my parents. I call and I will call my sister every single day a hundred times to talk about the same things over and over again... but mostly to reassure ourselves that yes, we are doing a good job, and that staying is what we want to do... and so day by day we know we live the life we want to live, and ours is beautiful, and it is a blessing!
As for my girls... well life is not easy, we are living in a world of immediate gratification that is undermining our ability to wait, to enjoy, to imagine, to create.... and maybe living in a country like this will help me, raise optimistic strong women capable of adapting to change, of creating their own happiness without help from others, of being able to enjoy life as a gift, and being the smile on somebody else´s face! And lastly being proud of who they are and what they are!
I don´t know if any of this made any sense to you... but I needed it today, so thanks for listening because now I am proud of being Venezuelan, once again!
Here are some pics of us, living without giving it much thought.... our life in pink as I call it!
Because in this corner of the world I get to enjoy this view every sunday...
And we find baby guacharacas in our rooms, which then in turn think that whoever found her is her mom....
and this, hug, this kiss.... and having my mom always there for us... priceless. If she only knew how big a force she is to us!.. maybe she knows, we´ve told her a million times!
my support and my inspiration... my team mates... all of that in this one picture!
This... this is the Venezuela I see... only this one!
Hope you have a wonderful week!
Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 16, then I have an 14 year old, and my miracle baby who is 6. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!
Am now a member of Communal Global!!!