Saturday was Emi´s Flamenco show, which is easily said, but it took a whole year of perseverance, a year of never missing a class, a year of practice, of rehearsing... a whole year of imagining what this day would look like and feel like! This is like Emi´s World Cup, her Super Bowl.... So Saturday morning as you can imagine was the most wanted of mornings!!!
Emi woke up very nervous, but less anxious than I thought she would be.... I think I was more anxious than she was. I got her dressed in this beautiful dress that we have been adoring for the last two weeks!!!!, then according to Emi, I became the best hair stylist and makeup artist in town!!! And she was ready.....!!!! Best of all, surprinsingly, we were all ready in time!
Once we got to the theater she was the happiest girl ever, I was the proudest mom, and dad and the girls the most supportive fans a girl could want. The show was beautiful, perfect! Emi really transforms herself when she is on stage, her pose, her hands movements, her body and her face so radiant make me feel so happy and proud, that I think I could just fly on all these feelings!
At the end it all sums up to a year of practice, an hour of on stage adrenaline, and a lifetime of happy memories!
Oleeee Emi.... keep dancing, keep conquering your dreams.... and always always stay as beautiful inside as you are today! We are all so very proud of you!
Here in Venezuela, is not easy staying sane with all the turmoil going around us.... This is one of the reasons I am so grateful for my parents house house in Margarita!!! So that in long weekends like the one we just had we can run away and pretend we live in this beautiful island where there is nothing but sea, sun, sand, and family!
So after the typical 2 hour delay at the airport.... and arriving in Margarita when the rental car agency was already closed, we finally found a cab that was willing to take us with stroller and all, to Miel y Papelon! The best thing was that my mom had left our room like a hotel room before she came back to Caracas this last week.... so once we got there, everyone crashed in a matter of seconds, of course everyone except me and Ari who decided everything was too new and exciting to just go to sleep just like that!
To answer Lile´s question... of course we missed you guys, Margarita is not the same without ¨our league¨, without the best grandparents a kid could want, or the strolls in the afternoon with Abi where finding a cow down the road is as typical as the sunset, or our always so delicious meals prepared by our so very private chef, or kids getting up the earliest possible to go out and play with whoever is up, or our conversations of politics or bad books we have read that affected our minds!!!! haha. But you know what, maybe this is why lying in the hamacs at sunset alone, is not that bad when we go without the crew... Is the time when I cherish my very own little family, and my very own crazy bigger family! In these trips I get to love each and everyone of you guys remembering all these moments.... and then I get back, and start planning our next great family trip!
As for us, we had the best of times! Ari went craaaazy with the sea, the sand, the sun, we could not get her to nap during the whole weekend, Ale and Emi, were the best company a mom could ever wish for, and even though it was not a real honey moon, being alone just the five of us always makes me love my husband and my life just a little bit more!
This past Friday was Alessia´s art show. She has been painting since I can remember, I really think she started painting way before she started walking and talking. She would spend hours drawing and coloring, anything could be special enough for her to draw, to try to capture still forever on a piece of paper, in her mind... giraffes, sunsets, flowers, animals, family, ants, her garden, dalmatians, cats..... but for me, the best part was looking at her go into this happy and peaceful place !!
In her 11 years she has tried out many things, like ballet and tennis, and gymnastics, but while she has fun and enjoys doing them, painting is where she really expresses herself, where I believe Ale is really Ale...
I love how she flies away to a magical world where I wish I could be at, a place that I am sure is full of colors, and rainbows, and butterflies, and flowers.... if only we could always see the world like this!
Here is my favorite artist!!!
Her self portrait:
Some of her paintings and sculptures!
A lot of people see father´s day and mother´s day as merely commercial, a day made to annoy people and to ¨have to¨give presents.... just another Sunday to get by. But when I hear that father´s day and/or mother´s day is every day, I know it is not true.... I don´t tell my dad how much I love him everyday, how he really is the best grandpa ever!, nor I tell my mom how thankful I am to have her in my life, or that I really don´t know what I would have done without her, or that she has really and truly helped me give the best advice no one could ever give me in times when me or my daughters have needed it.
We get so involved in our everyday lives, and so accustomed to the stresses of raising a family, to the nice things about it, to the laughter, and to the tears, to the nights with too many little hours of sleep, to never having time to watch more than a tv show per night because I surely fall asleep, we get used to going to the beach and look like a life guard all day looking after three little souls playing in the water, and to all the little things we give up each day just to make it better for our children. But mostly we forget that the only other person in the whole wide world that would give his life for your children, that love them in the exactly same way as you do, is him, their father! So given that... I love these days! I do want them to be special and I do try to make them special! And I say as many I love yous, and as many thank yous as I can. I get dressed maybe a little nicer than any other day, the same for the girls, try to make a breakfast that pleases all of us, put a little music on, talk about things we have done, and about things we would like to do together.... and I try to take pictures in my head that will make me remember these moments forever!
So HAPPY FATHER´S DAY!!! It is a special day, Dads can change the world, and you Sweetie, you are the world to our girls.... so thank you!
Here are the presents that Ale and Emi gave their Dad....!!! to me, the most precious and expensive of all!
Not everyday can be an inspirational one... today is one of those days.... is nice and cloudy, breezy and cool, and quite at home, but still...
So I went out for a run, and found myself almost dragging my feet, trying to think of a good reason to run my daily 5k.... or just a good reason to give myself that today I was just doing 2k....and then I found a very big sign right in front of me, a big and very simple sign:
and as simple as it is, this golden arrow showed me the way and kept me going until I completed my goal!
So, sometimes we might not have an excellent reason.... but just be sure to open your eyes and you might find one that helps you through!
P.S. and yes, I have to beat my sister who has many more ks than I do under her belt....
I am still trying to figure out what I want to write here, when, and maybe how.... so this morning while Ari was taking her nap, I intended to write something.... I wrote, and I erased some, and the I wrote some more, and then I erased even more... I did not want to force write something, and I thought I was thinking too much (which is not the real me). So the post remained a draft, which I just erased!
Then, I received an email from an old family friend, one of those mails that with just a few words make you feel special, loved, important.... that make your heart bigger and full of joy! That give you that sense of belonging that not everyone is lucky and blessed to feel in this lifetime. And suddenly, I didn´t have to think anymore, I just wanted to write, for me, for my husband, for my precious daughters, for my step sons, for my mom and dad, for my sisters, my nieces, my nephews.... and for that far away family, who after more than 30 years are still embedded in my heart, and I am sure that forever will be!
We are what we are for all that we have lived, for what we have loved, for how we have been loved, for the tears we have cried, we are a little of everyone that has somehow touched our lives.... we could´t be so selfish as to think that we are self-made, or that we are so unique that we have of no one in us.
So I guess today I just feel the luckiest person in the world, for having the family that I have, friends that I can call family, and I pray and hope that I can give my daughters the fortune to love... really L O V E the world, and to allow themselves to be loved!
.... and to always have these in mind: who would we impress if the whole world was blind?!?
Emiliana, my middle child is the sweetest and kindest girl there is.... she is always trying to be good and do good to others... she has the brightest of smiles, the best part of her smile is that is ALWAYS!!! She also dances Flamenco! and wow... what a style!!! Lately with all the things that happen in Caracas, she has had to deal with a lot of anxiety, she became fearful of being alone, of not being with me... of darkness, and of something bad happening to her and I believe to me. Thank God she has overcome most of these fears, we have talked for hours, we have prayed, we have held hands soooo hard... and one of the things that helped us was never quitting whatever it was that we had started.... one of these things was her Flamenco lessons, so every afternoon whether she felt like it or not... she put on her black skirt and red leotard... and then ¨los tacones¨ (the heels) and she started dancing and tapping all over the place. Every time she has does heels on, you can see how she walks with her head up high and with her smile more radiant than ever!
So letting go of her old tacones, might seem as just something ordinary, but I would like to remember them as our loyal companion for the last two years (we bought them a size larger...). So last night, she wore them and she honored them with a small dance... a small taconeo.... with her biggest fan... me, her mom!!!
the new Tacones!!! look at the color!!!!
Today, I was trying to do some of the many adult things that we try to do each day, while trying to follow and keep Arianna under control, while she kept exploring every inch of her surroundings, for the nth time today and in her life!... then it hit me: what is more important than just getting down with her and do the most adult thing I could do today..... enjoy my baby!!!
So there I was, lying on the cold floor with her, which immediately cooled me off and made me forget about whatever it was I was trying to achieve moments earlier. So I listened to the many birds that we have in this crazy city, smelled the delicious scent of Ari´s hair.... we kissed, and hugged, and kissed again... then I had to sleep her baby doll as Ari looked at me in awe and with the proudest smile ever.... and then the miracle happened, there was nothing more important in my life than that moment on that floor with the sweetest baby in this world.... Mi Ari! No yoga class, no morning run, no quite time for myself would ever give me the peace that I feel when I surrender to my girls!
Last night I was watching a movie with my husband about a girl who graduated from Harvard and went on to live an exciting career. As we were watching it I told him that I would have loved to go to Harvard, and then he asked me if I was happy, if I was satisfied with the things I have done in life.... For some reason I got so mad at the question, ¨of course I am happy.... why would you even ask that question??? ¨
The question made me think.... and thank God YES I am happy!!! I think all the stages in life are different, I think I have been lucky and have been able to do what at the moment in life I wanted to do... when I graduated from highschool I went to the best Architecture School in Venezuela, then I found the best job ever and I felt like in the movies..... then, it occured to me to do an MBA and I was accepted at the University of Illinois in Urbana Champaign, and fullfilled my dream of studying abroad, came back to Caracas and again I was the super executive woman of the movies!!! ooohhh it felt sooo good!!! and then while at the top of the world, came my knight in shining armor...... I fell in love with him literally since the first time I saw him!!!!
Our story, has to be in another blog.... it is too beautiful, romantic, too long, but I can tell you is the best story ever, and since then, all my childhood dreams became true! I married the man of my dreams, and who after almost 19 years still drives me crazy! I have given birth to the three best little souls that were available for me in heaven, and for that I will forever be thankfull, I will forever be happy, I will forever be blessed, and I will forever be the luckiest woman alive!
So... YES... thank God I am H A P P Y !!!!
This is how I feel:
I have been wanting to start a blog for quite some time now but have not gotten to do so for all the little reasons we give ourselves everyday.... But today is the day!
Yesterday I was watching my one year old play by herself and walk around the house as if she was 20 years old... and then it hit me... time passes soooo fast, and precious moment that you think are going to last forever engraved in your memory tend to fade away.... yes you remember the moments, you have pictures to remind you of them, but there are no pictures for what you feel, for how your your heart grows so big that you think is going to explode... of how your eyes melt at the smile of your child! This is why I want to write, so when my girls are old enough to understand, they will really have a window into their mom´s heart!
So today I began! I will write of things happening today, but I will also try to write down moments from the past that makes us who we are now!
Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 16, then I have an 14 year old, and my miracle baby who is 6. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!
Am now a member of Communal Global!!!