It all started 14 years ago when I first became a mom! That day everything made sense to me... I found my calling, I found myself... I became a mom! The happiest moments of my life have been sitting in a rocking chair, rocking my babies´ dreams, seeing into their eyes the future, my past, my present. Ale and Emi grew up, life changed a little even though I remained deeply in love with my babies, longing for our wordless love affair in the middle of the night, but still enjoying their ¨firsts¨ as tweens, as teens...! And then the surprise of our lives... along came Ari!
We never planned for her, even though I think we did all along, at least I know it was definitely written in stone that she was meant for us! All my babies have been planned c-sections, her birthday was planned too, but she changed it, and came one day, without notice, one late afternoon of February. She was born with her eyes wide open, she was calm, and happy, nothing worried or bothered her, she was perfect, beautiful, really beautiful and pink! She was this little brand new old soul! I remember I would spend my days just looking into her big almond eyes, and loving her sooo hard! This time around I was calmer and I made note to myself to really breath in every second with this baby, and every second with Ari, was also a moment of the lives of Ale and Emi I got to relive!
Still time has gone by so fast that here we are celebrating her 4th birthday. She is still our sweet baby, not that calm anymore, but as happy a little girl as you can imagine! She enjoys every little thing that crosses her path, and I can assure you that every person that crosses her path will enjoy her smile, her way, her life!
For her birthday of course she wanted to be a princess, so Princess she was! We gave her all that she wanted, or maybe it was what we wanted! a big cake, a little tea party, a doll house and the coolest magician ever! But aren´t these the moments that we will still cherish 50 years from now?
So here are some pictures of ¨her royal highness tea party
To begin her day she got 4 red roses
A princess tiara and a chocolate cake
And then some serious tea party to enjoy with her fellow princess friends!
Her awe and surprise was priceless!!!
Then it was piñata time!!! See how fancy and nice looking piñatas are here? People don´t understand how it is that kids don´t cry when it comes time to hit their favourite character for some toys. I guess they grow up with this tradition, and really enjoy it! Maybe not the hitting part, but the toy part!!!
And finally, it was time for her very own birthday cake!!! She has sang happy birthday to her on as many cakes as have cross her path, but this time it was really her day!!!! Now, she´ll have to patiently wait for next February.... while asking everyday what month we are in!
Hope you have a great week!!!
For two months, everyday at around 11 am, I have gotten undressed and put on this lovely blue gown, and stared into this mirror until I heard my name called... every single day I wondered why God had been so merciful to me, why I had it easy, while new friends outside this four little walls had it so hard. As shallow as it might sound I contemplated my hair, my eyebrows, my lashes... but each shallow thought brought also a much deeper one which brought me down to my knees humbled and thankful at this marvelous ordinary life and second chance God gave me!
Once my name was called, I layed for several minutes in the most magnificent machine, one that burnt my skin while saving my life, one that gave me solitude for 10 minutes a day and brought me closer to God. In there, I prayed one Salve and as many Ave Marias as I could. I prayed for all the sick, for all the healthy, for my life, for life, and I thanked God, oh so hard!
Today was the last day of my radiation therapy, and while I am overjoyed, I am also so melancholic, I don't want to forget! I want to always remember the love I felt from my family, my friends, the love I felt for them... how scared I was of loosing the most basic things in life, and every tear I shed, remembering every night while Ari was falling asleep with Disney's lullabies, our last family trip to Disney, all so happy... yet unaware of the grandiosity of each moment of our lives. Yes cancer is an evil disease, but in the most weird way it brings out the best in you...
So... to all you beautiful people that have shared this chapter of my life with me... thank you for standing tight, for loving me, for teaching me, for your sweet smiles, for making me laugh and feel strong, for making me strong and weak at the same time... I love you all!!!
Can't still believe this shitty chapter turned out to be so good!!!!
Oh and yes, thanks for not calling me a warrior... I was just Carolina with freaking fucking cancer!!!
Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 16, then I have an 14 year old, and my miracle baby who is 6. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!
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