For two months, everyday at around 11 am, I have gotten undressed and put on this lovely blue gown, and stared into this mirror until I heard my name called... every single day I wondered why God had been so merciful to me, why I had it easy, while new friends outside this four little walls had it so hard. As shallow as it might sound I contemplated my hair, my eyebrows, my lashes... but each shallow thought brought also a much deeper one which brought me down to my knees humbled and thankful at this marvelous ordinary life and second chance God gave me!
Once my name was called, I layed for several minutes in the most magnificent machine, one that burnt my skin while saving my life, one that gave me solitude for 10 minutes a day and brought me closer to God. In there, I prayed one Salve and as many Ave Marias as I could. I prayed for all the sick, for all the healthy, for my life, for life, and I thanked God, oh so hard!
Today was the last day of my radiation therapy, and while I am overjoyed, I am also so melancholic, I don't want to forget! I want to always remember the love I felt from my family, my friends, the love I felt for them... how scared I was of loosing the most basic things in life, and every tear I shed, remembering every night while Ari was falling asleep with Disney's lullabies, our last family trip to Disney, all so happy... yet unaware of the grandiosity of each moment of our lives. Yes cancer is an evil disease, but in the most weird way it brings out the best in you...
So... to all you beautiful people that have shared this chapter of my life with me... thank you for standing tight, for loving me, for teaching me, for your sweet smiles, for making me laugh and feel strong, for making me strong and weak at the same time... I love you all!!!
Can't still believe this shitty chapter turned out to be so good!!!!
Oh and yes, thanks for not calling me a warrior... I was just Carolina with freaking fucking cancer!!!
Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 13, then I have an 11 year old, and now I am starting again with our three year old happiest toddler ever. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!
Am now a member of Communal Global!!!